Bummed Out

So I feel like it's going to be one of those days. I'm trying not to let it be though.

I found out yesterday that there were some problems with the ride during the opening in Sweden. Therefore, James won't be home tonight. I feel like I have multiple personalities or something. I'm super supportive of him and his work. I appreciate his concern for others and their safety. This ride is safe, there was a malfunction and they think they've got it fixed. I would prefer him to be there and ensure that things are going properly. But then my selfish emotions get in the way. I just want my husband home. I miss him so much. I honestly don't know how people are able to manage being away from their spouses. Especially military personnel. I'm learning respect, I think. I really never thought much of it before, but this being apart is hard. I can barely handle 3 weeks. I can't imagine having to do months at a time. I'm embarrassed because I'm currently sitting here at my home with my dog, crying while I write this. I should be tougher.

Just bummed out.

SUNDAY!!!!

MY JAMES IS COMING HOME SUNDAY NIGHT!!!!!! YEAH!!!!! THAT'S THE BEST NEWS I'VE HAD IN 14 DAYS!!!!

I must pat myself on the back. This is the longest we will have ever been apart. The total for this trip will be about 18 days. The longest prior to this one was 13. I've only cried to him once. That's pretty good for being pregnant, right?

Getting there

Well, it feels like it's been a long week. It has actually. But I'm beginning to feel better. I'm so grateful for that. I'm still congested and now have a cough. But everything is breaking up and coming out. Hopefully I will be in the clear soon.

I get to talk to my sweetie about twice a day right now. I'm so grateful for computers and the amazing technology that has been given us! I think back to the pioneers and first members of the church. (as well as the pilgrims!) I get concerned when James isn't available for chat exactly when he said he would be. I cannot imagine those days when families would depend on letters or telegraphs to hear how their loved ones were doing. I am constantly reminded of how blessed I am. I also like to think of Joseph and Emma Smith. They had such a strong love for one another! Unbreakable! Amazing! They wrote such lovely words back and forth to one another. And expressed their feelings often. I like to think that James and I have that kind of relationship. Undying, true, unbreakable and AMAZING! He is such a ray of sunshine in my life. I'm so grateful for his sacrifices and SO thankful that I get to be spoiled to talk to him and see him while he is away. (sorry. maybe I got carried away there.)

Exhaustion

Absolute, 100%, sheer exhaustion. That's what I feel right now. Since I went to the zoo, I've had a massive head cold. I'm so congested and miserable. I can't get over it. Now I'm developing a cough. I just feel miserable. I'm trying really hard not to take any medicine. My Dr said I can take Tylenol or Robitussin products. I just don't want to over do it. How does everybody else get through sickness during pregnancy?

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

Dear James,
I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart. When my world was all but right side up you swooped in and turned it around. You are so wonderful. You make my life complete. I am so excited about your enthusiasm to be a father. You will be a fantastic role model for our little guy. I love how you speak kindly to me. I love that you respect e as a daughter of God and help me shine the very best that I can. I appreciate that you allow me to cry and laugh when I need to. Thank you so much for all of your loving support and kindness. You truly are an amazing man and I'm the lucky one to spend the rest of eternity with you.

Always and Forever, Love Your C.B.


(Sorry Sweetie. I couldn't find the wedding picture disk)

Birthday Bliss

Yesterday was my birthday. I sure had a good time. I went with James' family on Saturday to Utah's Hogle Zoo! I had never been there. It was so much fun! It was a long day though. I sure slept well Saturday night! Ashlee and I had a wonderful time releasing our inner child. We found that it was more fun to just pose with the statues.









Yesterday I woke up with a cold. It's pretty much kicking my hind end! But I went to church and came home to tidy my castle a little bit. I got to talk to my sweetie via Skype. Wonderful program! Get it if you have loved ones living far away! Then I enjoyed a lengthy nap. The only way I can imagine the day being better is with my sweetheart being home. It was perfect otherwise. Thank you to all who called and e-mailed wonderful birthday wishes!

Sniffle, Sniffle-Pout,Pout

Alas. . . it twas too good to be true. When James came home from Denmark on April 27 I was so pleased. There haven't been any sales for the Frog Hoppers. He had no more "scheduled" outings. Notice the quotation marks around scheduled. It turns out my sweetheart is a valuable employee. At least in my eyes he is. He was asked to assist in the final tweeking of a new roller coaster S&S is setting up in Skara, Sweden. So he has headed out and leaving me in the good care of our families. I'll take one for Team Tibbitts, and be completely grateful for our continued employment in this time of uncertainty.